I can't believe how much time has gone by since I last wrote. I think I got everything out of my system by writing about it, felt better and then went into denial mode that anyone was really leaving. But this weekend I got a glimpse into the world of becoming an empty nest mom. I guess you would call this our "practice" weekend on life with no kids at home.
So the two oldest kids are now gone (I will post later about those experiences). This was the youngest last summer at home before leaving for college. Time has really gone quickly, but I thought I had her home for another two weeks. She decided to visit her brother and new sister-in-law (who now live about 2 1/2 hours away) for three days before she leaves for college. I am so happy that they are all so close and get along so well, but three days... now...isn't this my time still to get her all to myself?! Anyway, my son and his wife were at an event in town by us so we planned on meeting at a McDonald's on the way back to their house to drop my daughter off so she could go home with them. We went in to get some ice cream before everyone departed and I could not even eat anything (shocker since McDonald's 49 cent cones are a favorite treat that I splurge on). I had such a pit in my stomach. This would be the first of many times I would be saying good bye to her. We got all the pillows, blankets and overnight gear into my sons car so they could take off for their ride ahead. My husband and I both were sitting in our car watching them drive off, until we couldn't see their car anymore. It was a quiet ride going home for us. It hit me that this is what it was going to be like soon. Dropping her off at college and always saying good bye. I think it hit my husband too! And as he said, my tears might be on the outside, but his are also there, only on the inside. I wonder if they will be inside tears when this is not the dress rehersal of seeing our youngest child leave?
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